Turning Chaos into Art

And for me, you may have read in my stories that my 15 yo had a seizure on Wednesday. He is okay. He’s had them before, but this was unexpected. ⠀

And it means instead of working on building the magazine, I spent the morning in the waiting room while he had an EEG.⠀

But in a way, I wouldn’t be making this magazine at all if it weren’t for him. He is the reason we have reached this moment at all. ⠀
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This has been a week. More ICE raids & shootings in the US, India-Kashmir chaos, protests in Hong Kong, and Toni Morrison died. And more. There’s always more. ⠀

And for me, you may have read in my stories that my 15 yo had a seizure on Wednesday. He is okay. He’s had them before, but this was unexpected. ⠀

And it means instead of working on building the magazine, I spent the morning in the waiting room while he had an EEG.⠀

But in a way, I wouldn’t be making this magazine at all if it weren’t for him. He is the reason we have reached this moment at all. ⠀

In 2004 we moved from Texas to Utah for my partner to start a PhD. Because of a mail forwarding error, we lost our health insurance in the move.⠀

Our son was born on a Wednesday. By Monday night, he was very sick & hospitalized. By Saturday morning, he had his first of many surgeries. Within 10 months, my partner left his PhD, and we moved back to Texas for a job with unconditional health insurance.⠀

We still had to declare bankruptcy. He was still sick quite often. We lived moment to moment, paycheck to paycheck, doctor visit to doctor visit. It was chaos.⠀

It was in that time when I took up knitting again. And returned to writing.⠀

It was also in that time that we decided we would leave the US for a place where we could have healthcare as a human right. We didn’t know where or how. ⠀

And in 2014, 2 weeks before his 10th birthday, our family moved to the Netherlands. ⠀

So here we are. Local. Though I would say like all expats, immigrants, and refugees, we are multi-local — but that’s a topic for another post. ⠀

Which brings me back to ICE raids and Toni Morrison. ⠀

After the re-election of George W. Bush in 2004, she wrote:⠀

“I know the world is bruised and bleeding, and though it is important not to ignore its pain, it is also critical to refuse to succumb to its malevolence. Like failure, chaos contains information that can lead to knowledge—even wisdom. Like art.”⠀

So here I am with you. Turning chaos into art. ⠀

[Photo. The passenger side car seat. A rain jacket with blue tulips, a knitting bag, a brown leather bag, and a black umbrella with author names. End.]

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